not really a hit-the-ground-running start

I attended the funeral of a good friend who passed away a few days ago. I realized that some people die to inspire others to live their lives well, and to cherish each day like it’s their last. It’s just that it’s really hard to accept when you know that the person is very friendly and warm. I wasn’t able to recognize some of my former classmates, due to the fact that I’ve discovered the fountain of youth.Well I don’t know if it’s really good or it’s embarrassing to look like you hardly changed at all.

Since I stayed up late and only had 2 hours of sleep, I slept immediately after reaching home. I woke up thinking of my brother’s money for tomorrow, so I decided to go and withdraw money from the ATM. Unfortunately, it was off-line and I was really pissed off that I wanted to just cry. And when I went home, I was even scolded by my grandparents. Of course, I felt really bad that in such situations, I want to move out and live on my own. But in reality, I can’t because we’re a middle-class family. 

Much ado about nothing.